Is Life a Test or Quest?

Many people think life is a test; especially those who belong to traditional churches and participate in traditional religious practices.

For a long time, I believed it, too.   The longer I live, and especially the longer I have been committed to a personal spiritual journey of awakening, it seems to me that what life really is, is a quest.    When we go on a quest, just like medieval knights, we go in search of something significant in our lives. 

This has been my experience, and in those heart-felt, heart-to-heart conversations I have with other women, it seems that it is true for them, too.  

 Your Quest and The Heroine's Journey

 Test or Quest Medieval knight & lady

When we begin a quest, we are embarking on a new chapter in our Heroine's Journey. Throughout my life, I have embarked on many quests on my own heroine's journey.  As a young adult, I searched for the path to connection with God.    I quested for love and happiness in my marriage and family.

More recently, I have quested for meaning and answers to life's Timeless Questions.   I have gone in search of who I really am, why I am really here, and what I am do to with the gifts, talents, and passions that I have so abundantly been blessed to receive in my life.    I have quested to know the purpose and mission I am here to fulfill, within the immediate circle of my family, and within the larger arena of service in the world.  I have searched passionately to find out the boon that only I can give (borrowing from Joseph Campbell), so that I might give it. 

Recently, I have quested for a level of completion of personal healing that began in the beginning of my Heroine's Journey ~ a completion that I thought I had realized many years ago, yet did not know there was more still to come, until the doorway opened before me, and I saw that I was called to step into both a simultaneously deeper and higher level of healing and completion.  I have been amazed and grateful beyond expression for what has unfolded.

Tests come along the way of quests.   Tests and trials have been the very stuff from which the answers and insights, and growth I have received have arisen.  They have helped me rediscover who I am, who I really am.  They have been the experiences and raw material from which so many of my personal hearts' Desires have been born and come to fruition.   I have learned that tests are not the ultimate purpose, they are simply a step or a stage of the Heroine's Journey.

Through the many stages of my Heroine's Journey, and the quests I have undertaken, my most fundamental and deeply felt quest has been for a soul connection with God.   I have always searched for this it seems ~ through out my entire life.  Initially, I found it in reading scriptures and prayer.   I feel the voice and presence of God and Jesus Christ speaking to me, and being with me in these quiet moments.  I find peace and power and strength and guidance beyond my own, in these timeless practices of personal devotion and connection with the Divine, and I cherish this still.   

In more recent years, I have yearned for a spiritual connection that nurtures and satisfies my woman's soul in a way that the patriarchal, male-defined, male-dominant, and male-regulated religion and practices of the church I belong to, does not satisfy.  

I discovered meditation and through this practice, the connection has deepened and become more direct, more immediate, and cosmically more expanded.  Meditation has changed my life in ways I never knew was possible before.

 Ophelia awakening to her True Self - Waterhouse 1894

And yet,  the connection for which I hunger, the nourishment my woman's soul yearns for, has not been fully satisfied through meditation, through reading scriptures or praying, or by the religious teachings and practices of the church.

As I have moved forward in my Heroine's Journey of awakening,  I have come to see one step at a time, that the connection that will nourish my soul is with Divine Mother.   Only this will satisfy my soul. 

I have come to see that all the other stages of the quest of my Heroine's Journey have led me to this one, and I have come to see that She has been leading me step by step to this moment ~ to this juncture of time, on the thresh hold of connection with Divine Mother.

The spiritual quest many of us begin in traditional ways like I did, is not complete until we connect with our Mother.   We need Her in our lives, and for many, including myself, our hearts will not be completely satisfied until we find her ~ for Hers is the nourishment that fills a woman's soul.  
 

What about you?

 What have you been seeking for in your life?  What have you quested for?   What is your heart's deep Desire?

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